These things, when they pour down or come in, present themselves with a
great force, a vivid sense of inspiration or illumination, much sensation
of light and joy, an impression of widening and power. The sadhak
feels himself freed from the normal limits, projected into a wonderful
new world of experience, filled and enlarged and exalted;what comes
associates itself, besides, with his aspirations, ambitions, notions
of spiritual fulfilment and yogic siddhi; it is represented even as
itself that realisation and fulfilment. Very easily he is carried
away by the splendour and the rush, and thinks that he has realised
more than he has truly done, something final or at least something
sovereignly true. At this stage the necessary knowledge and experience
are usually lacking which would tell him that this is only a very
uncertain and mixed beginning; he may not realise at once that he
is still in the cosmic Ignorance, not in the cosmic Truth, much less
in the Transcendental Truth, and that whatever formative or dynamic
idea-truths may have come down into him are partial only and yet further
diminished by their presentation to him by a still mixed consciousness.
He may fail to realise also that if he rushes to apply what he is
realising or receiving as if it were something definitive, he may
either fall into confusion and error or else get shut up in some partial
formation in which there may be an element of spiritual Truth but
it is likely to be outweighted by more dubious mental and vital accretions
that deform it altogether.
It is only when he is able to draw back (whether at once or after
a time) from his experiences, stand above them with the dispassionate
witness consciousness, observe their real nature, limitations, composition,
mixture that he can proceed on his way towards a real freedom and
a higher, larger and truer siddhi. At each step this has to be done.
For whatever comes in this way to the sadhak of this yoga, whether
it be from overmind or Intuition or Illumined Mind or some exalted
Life Plane or from all these together, it is not definitive and final;
it is not the supreme Truth in which he can rest, but only a stage.
And yet these stages have to be passed through, for the supramental
or the Supreme Truth cannot be reached in one bound or even in many
bounds; one has to pursue a calm patient steady progress through many
intervening stages without getting bound or attached to their lesser
Truth or Light or Power or Ananda.
This is in fact an intermediary state, a zone of transition between
the ordinary consciousness in mind and the true yoga knowledge. One
may cross without hurt through it, perceiving at once or at an early
stage its real nature and refusing to be detained by its half-lights
and tempting but imperfect and often mixed and misleading experiences;
one may go astray in it, follow false voices and mendacious guidance,
and that ends in a spiritual disaster; or one may take up one's abode
in this intermediate zone, care to go no farther and build there some
half-truth which one takes for the whole truth or become the instrument
of the powers of these transitional planes, - that is what happens
to many sadhaks and yogis.
Overwhelmed by the first rush and sense of power of a supernormal
condition, they get dazzled with a little light which seems to them
a tremendous illumination or a touch of force which they mistake for
the full Divine Force or at least a very great yoga Shakti; or they
accept some intermediate Power (not always a Power of the Divine)
as the Supreme and an intermediate consciousness as the supreme realisation.
Very readily they come to think that they are in the full cosmic consciousness
when it is only some front or small part of it or some larger Mind,
Life-Power or subtle physical ranges with which they have entered
into dynamic connection. Or they feel themselves to be in an entirely
illumined consciousness, while in reality they are receiving imperfectly
things from above through a partial illumination of some mental or
vital plane; for what comes is diminished and often deformed in the
course of transmission through these planes; the receiving mind and
vital of the sadhak also often understands or transcribes ill what
has been received or throws up to mix with it its own ideas, feelings,
desires, which it yet takes to be not its own but part of the Truth
it is receiving because they are mixed with it, imitate its form,
are lit up by its illumination and get from this association and borrowed
light an exaggerated value.
There are worse dangers in this intermediate zone of experience.
For the planes to which the sadhak has now opened his consciousness,
- not as before getting glimpses of them and some influences, but
directly, receiving their full impact, - send a host of ideas, impulses,
suggestions, formations of all kinds, often the most opposite to each
other, inconsistent or incompatible, but presented in such a way as
to slur over their insufficiencies and differences, with great force,
plausibility and wealth of argument or a convincing sense of certitude.
Overpowered by this sense of certitude, vividness, appearance of profusion
and richness, the mind of the sadhak enters into a great confusion
which it takes for some larger organisation and order; or else it
whirls about in incessant shiftings and changes which it takes for
a rapid progress but which lead nowhere. Or there is the opposite
danger that he may become the instrument of some apparently brilliant
but ignorant formation; for these intermediate planes are full of
little Gods or strong Daityas or smaller beings who want to create,
to materialise something or to enforce a mental and vital formation
in the earth life and are eager to use or influence or even possess
the thought and will of the sadhak and make him their instrument for
the purpose. This is quite apart from the well-known danger of actually
hostile beings whose sole purpose is to create confusion, falsehood,
corruption of the sadhana and disastrous unspiritual error. Anyone
allowing himself to be taken hold of by one of these beings, who often
take a divine Name, will lose his way in the yoga. On the other hand,
it is quite possible that the sadhak may be met at his entrance into
this zone by a Power of the Divine which helps and leads him till
he is ready for greater things; but still that itself is no surety
against the errors and stumblings of this zone; for nothing is easier
than for the powers of these zones or hostile powers to imitate the
guiding Voice or Image and deceive and mislead the sadhak or for himself
to attribute the creations and formations of his own mind, vital or
ego to the Divine.
For this intermediate zone is a region of half-truths - and that
by itself would not matter, for there is no complete truth below the
supermind; but the half-truth here is often so partial or else ambiguous
in its application that it leaves a wide field for confusion, delusion
and error. The sadhak thinks that he is no longer in the old small
consciousness at all, because he feels in contact with something larger
or more powerful, and yet the old consciousness is still there, not
really abolished. He feels the control or influence of some Power,
Being or Force greater than himself, aspires to be its instrument
and thinks he has got rid of ego; but this delusion of egolessness
often covers an exaggerated ego. Ideas seize upon him and drive his
mind which are only partially true and by over-confident misapplication
are turned into falsehoods; this vitiates the movements of the consciousness
and opens the door to delusion. Suggestions are made, sometimes of
a romantic character, which flatter the importance of the sadhak or
are agreeable to his wishes and he accepts them without examination
or discriminating control. Even what is true, is so exalted or extended
beyond its true pitch and limit and measure that it becomes the parent
of error. This is a zone which many sadhaks have to cross, in which
many wander for a long time and out of which a great many never emerge.
Especially if their sadhana is mainly in the mental and vital, they
have to meet here many difficulties and much danger; only those who
follow scrupulously a strict guidance or have the psychic being prominent
in their nature pass easily as if on a sure and clearly marked road
across this intermediate region. A central sincerity, a fundamental
humility also save from much danger and trouble. One can then pass
quickly beyond into a clearer Light where if there is still much mixture,
incertitude and struggle, yet the orientation is towards the cosmic
Truth and not to a half-illumined prolongation of Maya and ignorance.
I have described in general terms with its main features and possibilities
this state of consciousness just across the border of the normal consciousness,
because it is here that these experiences seem to move. But different
sadhaks comport themselves differently in it and respond sometimes
to one class of possibilities, sometimes to another. In this case
it seems to have been entered through an attempt to call down or force
a way into the cosmic consciousness - it does not matter which way
it is put or whether one is quite aware of what one is doing or aware
of it in these terms, it comes to that in substance. It is not the
overmind which was entered, for to go straight into the overmind is
impossible. The overmind is indeed above and behind the whole action
of the cosmic consciousness, but one can at first have only an indirect
connection with it; things come down from it through intermediate
ranges into a larger mind-plane, life-plane, subtle physical plane
and come very much changed and diminished in the transmission, without
anything like the full power and truth they have in the overmind itself
on its native levels. Most of the movements come not from the overmind,
but down from higher mind ranges. The ideas with which these experiences
are penetrated and on which they seem to rest their claim to truth
are not of the overmind, but of the higher Mind or sometimes of the
illumined Mind; but they are mixed with suggestions from the lower
mind and vital regions and badly diminished in their application or
misapplied in many places. All this would not matter; it is usual
and normal, and one has to pass through it and come into a clearer
atmosphere where things are better organised and placed on a surer
basis. But the movement was made in a spirit of excessive hurry and
eagerness, of exaggerated self-esteem and self-confidence, of a premature
certitude, relying on no other guidance than that of one's own mind
or of the ''Divine'' as conceived or experienced in a stage of very
limited knowledge. But the sadhak's conception and experience of the
Divine, even if it is fundamentally genuine, is never in such a stage
complete and pure; it is mixed with all sorts of mental and vital
ascriptions and all sorts of things are associated with this Divine
guidance and believed to be part of it which come from quite other
sources. Even supposing there is any direct guidance, - most often
in these conditions the Divine acts mostly from behind the veil, -
it is only occasional and the rest is done through a play of forces;
error and stumbling and mixture of Ignorance take place freely and
these things are allowed because the sadhak has to be tested by the
world-forces, to learn by experience, to grow through imperfection
towards perfection - if he is capable of it, if he is willing to learn,
to open his eyes to his own mistakes and errors, to learn and profit
by them so as to grow towards a purer Truth, Light and Knowledge.
The result of this state of mind is that one begins to affirm everything
that comes in this mixed and dubious region as if it were all the
Truth and the sheer Divine Will; the ideas or the suggestions that
constantly repeat themselves are expressed with a self-assertive absoluteness
as if they were Truth entire and undeniable. There is an impression
that one has become impersonal and free from ego, while the whole
tone of the mind, its utterance and spirit are full of vehement self-assertiveness
justified by the affirmation that one is thinking and acting as an
instrument and under the inspiration of the Divine. Ideas are put
forward very aggressively that can be valid to the mind, but are not
spiritually valid; yet they are stated as if they were spiritual absolutes.
For instance, equality, which in that sense - for yogic Samata is
a quite different thing - is a mere mental principle, the claim to
a sacred independence, the refusal to accept anyone as Guru or the
opposition made between the Divine and the human Divine etc., etc.
All these ideas are positions that can be taken by the mind and the
vital and turned into principles which they try to enforce on the
religious or even the spiritual life, but they are not and cannot
be spiritual in their nature. There also begin to come in suggestions
from the vital planes, a pullulation of imaginations romantic, fanciful
or ingenious, hidden interpretations, pseudo-intuitions, would-be
initiations into things beyond, which excite or bemuse the mind and
are often so turned as to flatter and magnify ego and self-importance,
but are not founded on any well-ascertained spiritual or occult realities
of a true order. This region is full of elements of this kind and,
if allowed, they begin to crowd on the sadhak; but if he seriously
means to reach the Highest, he must simply observe them and pass on.
It is not that there is never any truth in such things, but for one
that is true there are nine imitative falsehoods presented and only
a trained occultist with the infallible tact born of long experience
can guide himself without stumbling or being caught through the maze.
It is possible for the whole attitude and action and utterance to
be so surcharged with the errors of this intermediate zone that to
go farther on this route would be to travel far away from the Divine
and from the yoga.
Here the choice is still open whether to follow the very mixed guidance
one gets in the midst of these experiences or to accept the true guidance.
Each man who enters the realms of yogic experience is free to follow
his own way; but this yoga is not a path for anyone to follow, but
only for those who accept to seek the aim, pursue the way pointed
out upon which a sure guidance is indispensable. It is idle for anyone
to expect that he can follow this road far, - much less go to the
end by his own inner strength and knowledge without the true aid or
influence. Even the ordinary long-practised yogas are hard to follow
without the aid of the Guru; in this which as it advances goes through
untrodden countries and unknown entangled regions, it is quite impossible.
As for the work to be done it also is not a work for any sadhak of
any path; it is not, either, the work of the ''Impersonal'' Divine
who, for that matter, is not an active Power but supports impartially
all work in the universe. It is a training ground for those who have
to pass through the difficult and complex way of this yoga and none
other. All work here must be done in a spirit of acceptance, discipline
and surrender, not with personal demands and conditions, but with
a vigilant conscious submission to control and guidance. Work done
in any other spirit results in an unspiritual disorder, confusion
and disturbance of the atmosphere. In it too difficulties, errors,
stumblings are frequent, because in this yoga people have to be led
patiently and with some field for their own effort, by experience,
out of the ignorance natural to Mind and Life to a wider spirit and
a luminous knowledge. But the danger of an unguided wandering in the
regions across the border is that the very basis of the yoga may be
contradicted and the conditions under which alone the work can be
done may be lost altogether. The transition through this intermediate
zone - not obligatory, for many pass by a narrower but surer way -
is a crucial passage; what comes out of it is likely to be a very
wide or rich creation; but when one founders there, recovery is difficult,
painful, assured only after a long struggle and endeavour.
By Sri Aurobindo
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